Happy Christmas!

Is our 11th Christmas.. we spend together every year, never miss out each other. Ouwwhee.. sweet.

Although no gift from him, but he bring me to one of my favourite restaurant TGIF to had our dinner.. and he know I enjoy spend my time with my brother and my sister inlaw… so really had a wonderful night.. :) Merry Christmas !

girl are silly..little candy will melt their heart away..

feel something uneasy

update his friendster profile...
no longer wish to meet me...
to build a trust is 10year, to destroy it 1 second.

he being so selfish all the time.i am tired.

slap slap slap and punch! really painful.. but even worst bleeding in my heart.

We again quarrel because of tiny little small thing. Simply I ask him why often use mem-maid softeware, add-on I said must be something. Suddenly be so fierce and stare at me with his sharp eyes. I know going to start another war. I trying to avoid and stop it, so I answer I not mean anything. I already promise myself to trust him. So never purposely check anything. Because I told myself if happen like ws n kit incident, it a game over for me and him. I feel so tired in this long run relationship.

I didn’t manage to stop the quarrel, we getting over and over, and trying to make me cry harder and more sad, I slap on his face, then he said if I do it again he will revenge. OK, so I do it again..he really slap me hardly, my heart break, so I slap him again, he again slap me back harder.. and I did it again and turn my self so he punch my back very very hard… now my backache, writing, holding thing, rise up my hand I also feel pain.I heart very painful now.

I wanna leave him 070707 forever.

not bcus of $$$.. i just wan a status..

u ask her　公司对你而言是什么？HIMHIM对你而言是什么？+bro+和+SIS+对你而言是什么？

hbro says:如果是什么都不是，那么my effort n all promise is just empty是对了
hbro says:今天我没说不该给，那天１０％还是我提议的！！！是如何给才公平些，不能等我回来吗？
+SIS+说她今天才听到．我们要讨论未来如何走，她不该说难听的话，感觉是在追债．要给，她肯定是第一个，看了她说的这些我就现在给她也不会开心．
hbro says:meme, HIMHIM have told me,
+meme+ says:yes.hbro says:wat do u think now? i want to know ur feeling
+meme+ says:my empty not mean everything. i know COMPANY treat me very well.if u think my empty meaning everything then i wordless
hbro says:u just tell ur feelingHIMHIM paste u the message i sent to him?
+meme+ says:last time when +FRIEND+ with us, ur guys always wan to give him share.... everytime mention... but .. maybe i dun know when the promise will be granted..so a bit impatient in my reward..sometimes ..balanCOMPANYng is important. do u guys ever talk to me about it? never actually.i not no company will so freedom. no compay will pay for my make up course.i know all this. but if once submit to add name must spend $$$. .. i told HIMHIM before.. just gimme a firm answer ..yes or no... i can accept the fact..i just dun wan drag for so longtrust me.. i am adult.. i can accept the fact. i dun like thing that begging from. i thnik u know me too.sometime HIMHIM simply make thing worst.i am adult.. i feel shamei feel very badi not calculative type of person.. i willing sacrafic all my time to ur family.i worry for my future... HIMHIM makes me lost confident toward him.. do u feel i how worry?10 year...5 year in COMPANYhbro says:meme, is okay, u can voice up 1, but u also have to listen our explaination.... i do so must got my own reason, that day HIMHIM told me first time, i agree with him and purpose to give u 10%, but i told HIMHIM not told u first, coz i need to said with SIS also, and discuss in more details+meme+ says:honest to me..if not inCOMPANYdent..do will think will drag how long? sorry if my sentence a bit harsh. i just wan to know.do u know last time jealous +FRIEND+...ur mom always said must give him sharejust wan u guys to step on my foot n feel how i feel.hbro says:as u know, in COMPANY, we 3 are bro and sister.... nothing can break our relationship.... u say who contribute the most?+meme+ says:we all giving up many thing for COMPANY...what we get..we manage to build it up..i know we doing good now.i know sure is 3 of uhbro says:no+meme+ says:SIShbro says:i mean 3 = SIS HIMHIM and me, who contribute the most?+meme+ says:ok.let me share one by oneSIS : she willing to work long hours...she is a girl.. she give her whole life to COMPANY... getting older ..is harder for her to find the right life partner. what she get is lot of proj experience..jeff : you far away.. less chance to spend w ur beloved mom, unhealthy lifestlye due to busy work. what u get is getting bigger network.. to make sure COMPANY get more customerHIMHIM :his always good life.. no worry. eeverything sis n bro will takecare of it. learn to manage a company.hbro says:who is the MOST? each of us will think him/her is the most... but the answer is cannot be evaluated, cannot be compared+meme+ says:tat why i never say who the mosti just tell what in my mindhbro says:ya... now if u think we are not bro and sis.... wat will happen?+meme+ says:of course break.hbro says:i told u some very important+meme+ says:u guys should talk much ealier..i like OPEN UP.. i can accept.5years... do u know how my finanCOMPANYal ?i am 29 now..no longer youngi can't even own my car.i not blme on u guys... coz company just getting better year 2006hbro says:ya, of course we will always 争吵because of benefit if we are not the bro or sis, then i sure the company wont growth like that....if +FRIEND+ still with us....+meme+ says:so do u think my relationship is?hbro says:he only can get his share when company is going to public listing.... coz he is not my bro and sis....as u, when u said to HIMHIM everything is empty.....+meme+ says:told u my empty not to everythinghbro says:i ask him to ask u 3 questions, he sent to u?+meme+ says:er.abut?hbro says:this 3 questions , the last 2 question i want ur answer is 亲人！this is the only reason i agree to give u share when he first time ask meif u said all promise gone, it really hurt me... coz u never listen to me yet+meme+ says:u should know i treat u all like family.my empty not refer to everything.hbro says:now i continue to told u the reason....+meme+ says:okhbro says:the first reason, the first time HIMHIM discuss with me, SIS dun know our out come, and we aslo never talk again after it, and we havent discuss detail on it....+meme+ says:i just wan to know when. yes or no also OK.. I am honest... IF no..of course i feel very sad..but time will cruel..coz i know ppl sometimes not notice the time flies.i am type of person. i just wan answer.jeff , 5 years is not long but also not short. so i just dun wan keep wait. sorry for what i told today.i feel very bad.hbro says:as u know i seldom got patient to explain so many to ppl in typing english+meme+ says:i knowi about to told u tat..u r busy..we discuss when u backhbro says:dun tell , im type of person, i just want answeryes or noso simple+meme+ says:my english no good..tat why sometimes aound rude.hbro says:i explain so many to u, is YES, why u never under+FRIEND+d it?!now is when and how much!+meme+ says:sighno nohbro says:u think we should said like that?+meme+ says:sigh.hbro says:like that everything is no worth at allthan or i need to ask u how much u want and when u want it? than do you feel happy like that?+meme+ says:imagine if this company own by HIMHIM n ling, u just helping. 2 years pass, 4 years pass... ... and so on...i not here to calculate.if to calculate..i won't join u guys 2002..... coz everymonth i not enough cover my expenses..REASON : i treat i am part of family.hbro says:my answer is i will do wat as Lim Ban Seng+meme+ says:why..? ur word never step on my foot n think... but i always step on u guys n think.hbro says:if not that reason u treat u are part of family.... i wont give any share+meme+ says:is bcus of STATUS...create so many problem.. i dun think is worth iti feel very sad.my insecure.hbro says:why word i never step on u foot?which word i never step on u foot?i said No to u?+meme+ says:hbro says:like that everything is no worth at allthan or i need to ask u how much u want and when u want it? than do you feel happy like that?my english not good.. my word my rudehbro says:u go back to READ the whole MSN, see which i said that bad words!see why i said that bad words!+meme+ says:u didn'tjust my language make it sound rude..hbro says:why i said "like that everything is no worth at all "i said is because ur words!so rude, never 1 to listen mewant answer yes or no+meme+ says:sigh.hbro says:sigh is meaning wah?+meme+ says:nosorry my language is badi know u very angry now.. i think we better end here..sorry.I AM HONEST.. I AM SORRY!hbro says:i not angry+meme+ says:I AM SORRYhbro says:in my heart u are my sister+meme+ says:iknow..hbro says:but u need to control ur 脾气，i aslo bad脾气+meme+ says:i know it.hbro says:as u know, it wont give u any benefit to said like that+meme+ says:i knowhbro says:dun make until anything cannot turn backthe other third reason, i told u when i back+meme+ says:okhbro says:the next time i back, i will disucss to them, we sure will not 亏待i only got 1 very important think to said公司对你是什么．．．．+meme+ says:belong to us. we build it together.hbro says:它其实不是给你的保障它是你一生的事业HIMHIM对你是什么？他是你一生的投资，你要学会给大家空间as 666, today we still have no share, but we still do.... becasue i believe in other thing, we never loss+meme+ says:ok. i get wat u mean.

take it back..i not deserve it

+himhim+ says:
+JE+ says:we sure will reward back to our staff who work hard to us, espacielly
+meme+, but let us discuss first, and will fair to all of us.... if finally we give her 10%, i also want her to commit to our 核心价值，任何事情都要为公司着想
+JE+ says:u told her not to worry first.... wait i back and dicuss with u, chailing and mum
++meme++ says:STAFFok.. enough looo任何事情都要为公司着想
+himhim+ says:: )
++meme++ says:coolnvm.i dun wan it liaw
+himhim+ says:ur thinking got problem
++meme++ says:i heart very pain nowstand on my feet n think..all the while i never betray company..all i do for company
+himhim+ says:he not mean tat ... u no need think too much

what is the meaning of marriage?

why he still make mistake out with other girl after buy me wedding ring? why? the day he gave me i love the ring very much..but after i know about kit, to me is a dark spot to it. and the car no longer the car i always love anymore...

snooker day for him

i know he prefer spend time with his friend rather than back to my home. but last time he can always come and without feel tired. reason.. he changed.i never force him because i hate quarrel.i prefer peace. but he very bad temper.I feel exhausted. help me pls.

my birthday present.

my birthday present is a watch, the watch that he only need to pay half. i always don't want him to spend too much. But what makes me very dissapointed is he can skip my present, and spend alot of money buy new pant and top ..

esp pant : 150
esp t : 60billa : 180
ree slipper : 110
zar : 110
beach short : 40total up is much more expensive then my half watch. and the watch is i pay myself, he forget to pay me already.i feel very very sad.

my birthday and our 10 anniversary.

during my birthday, he was very busy. So I Ok to postpone the celebration. But until today still not yet celebrate.

10 anniversary is a big day to us, but again he busy, so I again agree to postpone. But almost a month, I think he forget of it. And the meaning is no longer there, I remind few times, i think is more than enough.

I feel he just always take for granted. I getting tired in this relationship where I one party sacrafic, and he just waiting to be pamper all the time. I just a normal girl, I should deserve more pamper than him.

he proposed to me 26 feb 2007

Saturday night him and I out for movie – Spiderman 3. In the movie peter parker plan to propose to mary jane. His grandmother wan him to do something special , where mj will remember for entire of her life. Peter parker was so exciting … blabla…

Last night, Sunday, we watch tv, phoenix channel, a china tv show. Also about proposed. A man make himself like an angle with a monkey angel toy on his hand with the ring, and proposed to his lovely gf and with my sweet and touch word..the moment, I shed my tear.. because I can feel how the girl feel at that moment….so touch n sweet.

I suddenly think, that time how he proposed to me. I so disapointed. Just a ring and a box and amous cookies. Somemore just in his room. I shed my tear and told him how much I disapointed, all these year I keep waiting for this day, but what he did is nothing but a ring n cookies.

We had quarrel. I blame me that trying to hurt me, I was very scare so I have to tell him that I am happy, else he will hurt me more.

I just a simple girl, I never request anything, I only need a sweet and memorable proposed.My only memory was he hurt me because I refuse to accept. Some man proposed 3-4 times before they success.. mind have to accept although I not like the moment..i accept because i truly love you.

msn with him on 17april 2007

+meme+ says:http://takeiteasymydear.blogspot.com/2006_08_01_archive.html
+him+ says:send me ur blog again
+meme+ says:nvmnothing so important
+him+ says:what url?+meme+ says:http://takeiteasymydear.blogspot.com/2006_08_01_archive.html
+him+ says:after read ur blog found tat i very stupid on passmore understand u, feel so sorry and regret to hurt u again n again
+meme+ says:i feel i very silly
+him+ says:i was stupid and blur
+meme+ says:is okie... everything is over.i not so hurt this time..coz this is not my 1st lesson.just i full of disapointmentmaybe is too late to realize
+him+ says:u forever
+meme+ says:http://www.friendster.com/photos/38591454#pic=0166796179who is she?+him+ says:huh why?+meme+ says:dun lieu dun know her?
+him+ says:i donno wo+meme+ says:hahasherrydun act blur+him+ says:crazy........+meme+ says:goodi always cra zy i know+him+ says:why??
+meme+ says:nothing+him+ says:why this+meme+ says:if u dun know why..am sure she not in ur msn list lor+him+ says:no....................+meme+ says:haha+him+ says:no add b4+meme+ says:just search from ur msn listthen only answer my question+him+ says:no no no+meme+ says:sherry.msn@hotmail.comshe know u..u dun know herfunnysexy young chic ler+him+ says:no no no no no ...trust me!!!! i will never lie u again ..pls+meme+ says:noi won't..coz i can't see ur true colourvery sad+him+ says:i stopI fully stop ... never do it again+meme+ says:u delete it+him+ says:will never hure u againtrust me+meme+ says:am 100% surei know u know her+him+ says:after read ur blog i feel so regretand so sorry 2 u+meme+ says:i know why ur msn avoid put mecoz u got other girl in ur listif see ady...i cannot flirt aroundafter i read..i cannot forgive u+him+ says:what msn avoid put u?+meme+ says:photomost of my friend who got gf..they so proudbut me is under table typebut nvm...everything too late+him+ says:don say tat+him+ says:+meme+ sends:+him+ says:+him+ ask u give +him+ 1 more chance to treat meme good goodno no noSending of "张惠妹-记得.mp3" to +him+ has failed.+meme+ says:u dun know how hurt i ami never know..else u won't do it again+him+ says:i know+meme+ says:u dun know..u only know for 1 month+him+ says:v sorry to memezai+meme+ says:then u forget againi dun wan to hear all this.give me some space+him+ says:no more forever+meme+ says:i need time to think+him+ says:meme forever+meme+ says:i told myself n promise to myself already..no more 2nd chancethis is way i told myself+him+ says:i'll ing u forever+meme+ says:but i promise to myself too+him+ says:nolet me treat u good good+meme+ says:only 1month+him+ says:no ...+him+ says:cute meme pls dun cry ... I know v wrong liao+meme+ says:but i very disapointedwhy everytime must get through all thisi hate it+him+ says:my heart also crying ...see meme get hurt+him+ says:don unhappy pls. ..+him+ truly promise u wont happen againthursday dinner bring u eat nice food+meme+ sends:Transfer of "辛晓琪-领悟.wma" is complete.+meme+ says:u listen with ur heartn feel the pain+meme+ sends:Transfer of "张惠妹-记得.mp3" is complete.+meme+ says:she sing with her hearti feel her painthis song accompany when ws inccidentnow they again with me.

Kit.. another girl

Today again my bad day.He again betray me, the girl name call Kit. I called the girl this morning, to clarify everything. They met few times before. He still dare to hold his breath and lie to me they never met.Again I fall into such the heart broking moment, last year WS on March, now Kit on April 2007. Just 1 year ago, he again broke his his promise. This year Feb, he proposed to me and promise me many thing. But again he destroy the meaning of marriage. He such a jerk, no responsible at all.

I wan to tell the whole world what I am suffering now. I am sure everyone will want me to leave him asap. So do I. I have make my decision. I won’t give him 2nd time. I hate accord already sit by other girl who I dun know at all. I hate everything from his mouth from the mins onward I know the truth.

I learn a lesson, man never appreciate no matter how good you treat me. So wake up girls… dun treat them like prince..they all are jerk. I guess I finally wake up from this nightmare.10 years is the end of our love story.

Maybe is my problem. I not good enough for him. But I think I already did my best for him all the while.. Maybe other girl will treat him better, he will more satisfied with her.

VOILENT...

Out of sudden. I need someone to talk, to be my listener.Life is dull, full of anger and sadness. Same question keep on repeat in my mind, will he beat me and hurt me again and again? I very scare of him after a few quarrel with him. He trying to kill me. How? But I really love him. I scare if I marry with him, my life will be worst then now. I very confuse. In these 10 years, he been hurt by him so many times, countless of quarrel, countless of tears.

I feel we are not stable yet. I hope I have more time to reconsider our relationship, I wish I am 20. I giving all my youth. What I get is the by day, he treat me more rude and hurt me badly. ***SCREAM***I hope I can crying out loud. But I need to learn to hold my tears. Because he feel happy went I cry. He hardly give me big hug while I am sad or down or sick.

I really unhappy. No respect. No appreciation.

Converstation between ABC n his sister April 2006

mr.ABCsays:i got problem with MEME already
Sister says:what problem?
mr.ABCsays:she knew me got 3rd person
Sister says:huh? who is the 3rd person? why this happened?
mr.ABCsays:her name is WS
mr.ABCsays:i donno how
Sister says:why this happened? u lost interest w
MEME? or just a mistake?
Sister says:who u actually want to be with?
Sister says:how u know she know abt WS?
mr.ABCsays:i fall love with new 1 ..but i know i can't leave MEME
mr.ABCsays:ask me lastnight
mr.ABCsays:from phonebill
Sister says:she suspect ?
mr.ABCsays:feel i'm very bad
mr.ABCsays:yesSister says:she call the gal?Sister says:i feel v bad too...Sister says:but u must keep yr mind clearSister says:it is a serious problem..Sister says:u know... MEME is v good gal... for her.. everything come in her mind is you!mr.ABCsays:actually MEME is my burden i hav no $ 2 marriage with MEME , and she wan 2 marriage soonSister says:u admit w the new gal?Sister says:but whom u want to really spend time w for this long life?... be honest to yr heartSister says:i also foresee that... she is not young.. and w you for years.. time for marrage too,,,and their parent also hurry..mr.ABCsays:i cant' choose .. i scare regret, ofcoz if i got $ now, i will with MEMESister says:for Company... if it is still no profit.. might find other way to work out.. and now just test the market of china.. it is a good chances for CompanySister says:yesterday i just ask MEME.. abt the apartment booking...Sister says:for this... i think we all can look into the problem... and solve together... the booking need the down payment for abt 20k.. right?Sister says:why come in the new gal....? how u get to know her? how long?mr.ABCsays:know her half yearSister says:that is really bad to step on 2 boat.. hurt all the parties at end of the day.. but if u want to be w a gal... shouldnt have another.. w MEME, then must cut the relationship w anothermr.ABCsays:she attract me maybe it's just freshSister says:MEME know abt yr relationship w the new gal?mr.ABCsays:knowSister says:as u told... its just fresh... u and MEME already for years.. but its hard to get a person who love u so much.. u know...mr.ABCsays:i know.. i can't find anyone "heart" better than MEME treat meSister says:MEME wont lost anyone... she beautiful gal... and good heart too.. and most important she care abt you...mr.ABCsays:something i don like she too care abt me. n like everything plan 4 me..make me more zhu jian
Sister says:since u know... then must treat her nice... for a gal..what really HURT is found the guy she loved... love other...Sister says:since she know... whats her decision?mr.ABCsays:+ ME+ says:i know more..i will clear more n know how to face the whole thing n find out my way to comfort myself..
+ ME+ says:pls respect our relationship and trust.Sister says:u know... because she love u.. so she care abt u...
mr.ABCsays:with WS i more feel like i'm bf. MEME give me is she is my sister feel but when i back see
MEME , got back 2 home feel

Can I shout infront of everyone?

Can I shout infront of everyone?

I need a space to calm down myself while I hold tight my tear. I am sick of this unfair relationship.

He need more new girl. Maybe this is the only way to make himself confident. I can’t give him that feeling. He never feel proud to have me.

Just now again so rude to me, again wanna hurt me. He hold my neck and push me to the sofa. I wanna shout!

God create man, suppose to be equal. We should caring each other, respect each other. Why he never respect me as a good partner？ A life partner who always so sincere and faithful to him. Why?

This is the only place where I can voice out all my sadness, frustration.. no one can share.Maybe we in different direction. I shall like him. Get to know more guy out there.

Maybe he prefer this way. I not keen on it. So I will conclude as we are in different way of living way.I believe in first love last forever.

I believe one day I will find my true prince. I believe one day I will have my lasting happiness. I believe sincere and faithful will back with return.

He still love me? I believe him. But I know he not satisfied. Why? He forget how he hurt me last year march? Almost drive me crazy and kill myself.

Last 2 week, he trying to kill me..i very scare of him. The bruise on my leg still leave me a scare.My heart bleeding.

I truly hurt by someone who I love the most.

何时幸福?

时间过得好快，从不为任何人停留。
男人总是花心，总不回女孩的付出。
岁月让人变老，皱纹渐渐浮现脸上。
女孩依然专一，男人可否感受得到。
男人是否会醒，女孩何时才能幸福。
女孩可否等到，一年十年还是无数。
男人学会珍惜，爱情是快乐与幸福。
一起协手打造，一起完成美满家庭。

do u think he still remember this conversation??? i wonder...

Mr.ABC says:don misunderstand WS not jain
+ jaw + says:is her
+ jaw + says:this one look like her
+ jaw + says:then wat is WS friendster?
+ jaw + says:show me
+ jaw + says:n who is jain?
+ jaw + says:or u have more than 1 extra gf?
Mr.ABC says:no
+ jaw + says:not believe at all
+ jaw + says:u have more than 1
Mr.ABC says:not ..pls don misunderstand+ jaw
+ says:who is jain n who is WS?+ jaw + says:why lie to me again? she got friendsterMr.ABC says:jain just a gils last time know from PORTAL9. nothing with her she also know i got gf this 1 can call direct ask+ jaw + says:WS got friendster. why u lie to me say NOMr.ABC says:what NO?+ jaw + says:u say she dun have friendster+ jaw + says:but she have+ jaw + says:feel u lie more.............+ jaw + says:jain phone no same as WS?Mr.ABC says:i think she no friendsterMr.ABC says:not+ jaw + says:last night say jain christian name is Jain..but i find out is Celine+ jaw + says:pls explain+ jaw + says:u make me crazy..keep lie... tell me the truth..+ jaw + says:last night say WS christian name is Jain..but i find out is CelineMr.ABC says:no . WS christian name is not Jain..+ jaw + says:then u told me Jain is PORTAL9 friend?Mr.ABC says:yes+ jaw + says:Mr.ABC says:jain just a gils last time know from PORTAL9. nothing with her she also know i got gf this 1 can call direct ask+ jaw + says:u said she know u got gf wor+ jaw + says:why keep lie+ jaw + says:Mr.ABC says:no . WS christian name is not Jain..+ jaw + says:who is ur gf actually? jain = WS? then PORTAL9..then normal..then..+ jaw + says:i confuseMr.ABC says:WS = celine , jain = PORTAL9 friend normal fren+ jaw + says:then u said jain is WS christian name?Mr.ABC says:no+ jaw + says:just now u mentionMr.ABC says:no+ jaw + says:and then why jain hp number is WS number?+ jaw + says:pls explain.+ jaw + says:and then why jain hp number is WS number?+ jaw + says:they both share use the same number?Mr.ABC says:huh got meh+ jaw + says:dun lie again.+ jaw + says:act blur+ jaw + says:I HATE U+ jaw + says:u keep not honest to me+ jaw + says:n hurt meMr.ABC says:no+ jaw + says:so WS name is Celine.+ jaw + says:last night just simply say Jain .+ jaw + says:how many times u meet Jain?Mr.ABC says:never meet+ jaw + says:LIE.... her profile u are her close wan...www.Mr.ABC.com+ jaw + says:pls..u hide make me feel worst OK+ jaw + says:normal girl won't do tat ..ok+ jaw + says:i am a girl too+ jaw + says:explain!!!!!!!!!!!11+ jaw + says:i know u try to keep from now.Mr.ABC says:i think this put long time ago+ jaw + says:meaning..more thing u hide from me+ jaw + says:NO WAY.+ jaw + says:how many time u meet her?Mr.ABC says:really just normal fren. pls don misunderstand+ jaw + says:answer my question+ jaw + says:how many time u meet her?Mr.ABC says:never meet+ jaw + says:LIE LIE LIE...MR.ABC+ jaw + says:so famous huh+ jaw + says:like superstarMr.ABC says:i also did ask her why put Mr.ABC.com+ jaw + says:frank to me.. how many time u meet her?+ jaw + says:if not i will find out myself..Mr.ABC says:i never met her ..trust me+ jaw + says:u will feel worst+ jaw + says:frank to me.. how many time u meet her?Mr.ABC says:i never meet her..Mr.ABC says:met WS only ..+ jaw + says:sighMr.ABC says:not interested to meet jain ok ..she got bf too ..no need to meet+ jaw + says:i wil find out myselfMr.ABC says:really+ jaw + says:WS more photos+ jaw + says:coz u upload yesterdayMr.ABC says:??+ jaw + says:up to u lar...become ur collection or delete..just remember wat u have promise+ jaw + says:i am so upsad n hurtMr.ABC says:okMr.ABC says:sorry me+ jaw + says:this song reallysuit u+ jaw + says:but must sing by girlMr.ABC says:One day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is love? How can I find it?"The teacher answered, "There's a large wheat field in front. Walk there without turning back, and take just one leaf.If you can find one leaf that you think is extraordinary, it means you have found love."+ jaw + says:can u feel it..how i feel..+ jaw + says:this song tell u everythingMr.ABC says:So Plato walked and not long after that, he came back empty-handed.The teacher asked him, "Why, you don't bring any leaf?"Mr.ABC says:Plato said, "I can only bring just one leaf and when I walked through the wheat field I can't turn my back. Actually I have found one extraordinary leaf, but I don't know whether there's any other leaf more extraordinary, so I didn't take that leaf. When I walked further, I realized that the leaves I found are not as extraordinary compared to the leaf I've found earlier in my walk. In the end, I dMr.ABC says:I didn't take any single leaf."Mr.ABC says:Then the teacher told him, "So ….. That is love."+ jaw + says:u have pass by too my dear+ jaw + says:just deep cut in my heart+ jaw + says:i hope i can cry loud now..+ jaw + says:so pressure+ jaw + says:i dun think i can recover.+ jaw + says:i feel so weak n sad+ jaw + says:u no longer mr perfect to me.........Mr.ABC says:i bring u go out .. release n relax ok?+ jaw + says:no+ jaw + says:i wan do it myself without u+ jaw + says:i hope i canMr.ABC says:don at office we go hospital+ jaw + says:no+ jaw + says:i wil recover myselfMr.ABC says:u always the best 2 me..+ jaw + says:have to learn... else i will get hurt easily+ jaw + says:do u know..many ppl cann't last with their the best? so they have to choose the 2nd+ jaw + says:coz he make big mistake.+ jaw + says:not all mistake can be forgive.+ jaw + says:i try to calm myself to accept..i trying hard+ jaw + says:gimme sometimesMr.ABC says:Some thoughts:The more you look for love, you will find nothing. Love is in your heart, when you can control your desire and yourhope to find something better. When you have endless hope and wish of love, you will only get emptinessbecause you won't get anything and time can not be turned back. Accept love for what it is.+ jaw + says:this is my way to keep our relationship..i know no ending story if keep seaching..+ jaw + says:i clear wat i wantMr.ABC says:actually this is WS write 4 me 1 .. i agreed
+ jaw + says:this is copy from internet..not she write
+ jaw + says:she told u tat she is ur last one?
+ jaw + says:maybe she is ur THE BEST.+ jaw + says:u no longer perfect to me. i trust u all the while
+ jaw + says:sincere n faithful+ jaw + says:i hope we ever lasting..but i know this cannot happen to me..ur break my dream n my trust to u+ jaw + says:no seldom say my hand smooth n also my skin..coz u have younger skin to compare.
+ jaw + says:n u mention her skin very goodMr.ABC says:i think ur hand is smoother than her
+ jaw + says:i am 28, u know ppl laugh me i never go to beauty saloon..... sure got shock when know..told why never pamper urself.
+ jaw + says:i want. but i cannt
+ jaw + says:but i can't
+ jaw + says:can't affort....jason gf 6treament RM1600..
+ jaw + says:never ask u to pay me all this
Mr.ABC says:how much?
+ jaw + says:coz i know i must take care myself...
+ jaw + says:is very expensive... my skin getting more black head but think of money i just step away
+ jaw + says:she so rich n just go beauty saloon..+ jaw + says:dun compare my skin to her..she 22 me 28
+ jaw + says:just a old lady to u
+ jaw + says:i say this not bcus i want u to pay..just let u know 22 and 28 is big gap
Mr.ABC says:i willing 2 pay
+ jaw + says:no..i hope u can save money.
+ jaw + says:dun u notice i never ask u to pay anything
+ jaw + says:RM3000 when i birthday in ur account
Mr.ABC says:extra money earned $ can give u do also
+ jaw + says:tat my wish
+ jaw + says:i really hope u learn to save money with ur salary
+ jaw + says:u never listen to me..
+ jaw + says:i hope u save money+ jaw + says:i still can afford myself for beauty care produc
+ jaw + says:i just hope u can full fill my wish
+ jaw + says:but seem u can't..now is mid of march
+ jaw + says:sigh..
+ jaw + says:told early of march
+ jaw + says:u jsut spend more extra money.
+ jaw + says:i am just silly girl
+ jaw + says:u make me feel tat
+ jaw + says:i still thinking to accept or move on
+ jaw + says:try to persue myself
+ jaw + says:comfort myself
+ jaw + says:I HATE U..come to my mind
+ jaw + says:keep hit my mind
+ jaw + says:REMEMBER if u chat with her.i wanna see from 1st msg
+ jaw + says:dun lie to me again..i beg u
+ jaw + says:i know more..i will clear more n know how to face the whole thing n find out my way to comfort myself..
+ jaw + says:pls respect our relationship and trust.
Mr.ABC says:ok
+ jaw + says:tq

How long can I stand?

I not sure how long can I take it. He really not the man I knew 10years ago. I getting worry to marry such a man. He hide a lot of thing from me. I don’t think everyman like him. He is too many.

If I stay, will I become crazy? he hold me back after every quarrel. I feel so sad. Very sad.I wish I never know this man. He is the only man who hurt me again and again without realize that appreciate me. I hope I can run far away from his life. But I love him so much. Please tell me what to do.

I know he lie and cheat me. Should I open one eyes close one eyes? This is so unfair. All these year I always sincere and faithful to him. None of any man can replace him from my hurted heart.

“I love you”.. is easy to say. But I think action always more important than the word. When will he stop flirting around? 5 years? 10 years? Or worst..as long as he still a man.

I just a simple girl, always wish to have someone to cares and love me and sincere to me. But I think he not the one who can granted me all. Or all the man just same as him. But not agree with it.

He make a big mistake last year to have WS. His excuse to me is, maybe everyman will make 1 mistake before marry… and he make me feel that he will again lie to me.how long can i stand? 1 year? 10 years? no one know the answer.How long can i ?I'm tired.

SecretSMS

This morning, I browse his phone, notice a software download list. Inside the list got a software call SecretSMS, and this document was created on 26 Oct 2006.Poor girl, I guess he got secret girl again. I very scare and I again lost confident in my relationship toward him. I totally breathless. I am tired. Should I move on?

ahmoi.com.my

He again lie to me.

He is ahmoi.com member. On 30 Dec 2006, I coincident bump into ahmoi.com to see ws profile then of course also just take a look my bf profile. Get to know he just update his profile and also upload his new photos. He is single. Haha..

So I send his direct ahmoi link to him and tell him that his profile is single and full of his latest cool car and gadget photos. I know he get to know ws from ahmoi. I wonder why he wanna lie to me tat he have long time no login to ahmoi, but I saw the last active is 2 hours ago. What in his mind? He still searching for his next girl?

I feel very disappointed with him. He again lie n hurt me. He had very bad quarrel after he reveal he is lying to me. He hurt me badly, very bad. I leg got big bruise. My heart is broke.. during the quarrel, I like trying to kill me. I dun have such big energy like him. I am totally let him hurt me badly by his hand.

My body very hurt but my heart already bleeding.

I request to broke up with him, but he told me non-of them qualified. He only love me. But if he love me why always still giving hope to other girl?Silly girl.