only my day dream all the while..

to him i just someone he hired in low pay..yet must with excellent service.

He never care about how I feel when he do anything.

What I help and did, he never appreciate.I am silly girl. Sometimes I hope I die out of sudden actually.. so I have no worry, crying.. I won't commit suicide.

Life is not as you wish all the time... will I regret what I did all the while..

shout at me?

huh... ask him will tonight stay or back home. I patiently wait for his answer,,5mins over.. I re-asked again..he still not answer. So I wait for few 10mins again.. then I reasked again, you shout at me "go back lar"..WTF. Why can he so rude to me!

Everyone have their own stress.. but pls don't always show me your suck temper. I hate it. Now already, 11.44pm.. What for?

I wonder............. miserable...

he not feeling well

today he not feeling, having sore throat. poor thing.

take good care my darling.i wish to cook a lovely porridge for him..too bad not much ingredient here.

shanghai?

today, D invite me to go shanghai with his mom. I wish I can explore the big city...but wonder

my boyfriend will allow or not....my bf trust me. Because this is not the first time I travel with D. D a gentlement. So I trust him as well...he not even dare to touch my hair..haha.. = )

But deep in my heart..I wish I can travel around with someone I love... really in love. So my bf is the one =)

My love to him is forever.... : darling, please keep your promise.

empty promise

their promise me to me never fullfill.... sometimes i feel i am super silly, sacrafic so much but what i get is nothing... only make him and his family piss off..

he never fight for my benefit.

till now still low pay.. i can't afford a Myvi either. I still need to pay my insurance, for my family, self maintain product.. skincare sometimes really killing me, small bottle cost me RM300... sigh.. money money money..

i am getting old.... i think money is also getting more important for me.without money where is security..

lack of communication

this few days..both of us extremely busy..

not much talking to each other.. he always serious in his work. so I try not to disturb him, all I can do is when he feel starving, i happy n willing to prepare some simple food for him to fill his big stomach :) . I love cooking.

Hope after this project, we can spend some quality time together. escape urban life..go to the place where we seldom or never visit...i hope. :)

none of my business

today the lcd tv technician here...tv got problem..like i own it.. any problem all i kena first! then he scold at me somemore...

he lie to me again

today my bf lie to me again.he called her again on 3 June 2006 :( he has affair with a girl, call WS. I find out on march... but he choose to back to me... and i take a looong time to accept the truth... and i forgive him. he promise will never happen again.. he will only focus in his career and take care of me.. i trust his word.i not sure my decision will make me regret one more time.. sometimes need someone to advice me..sigh..very sad... long run relationship..is tough..