conver with him this afternoon

men never treause for what they hav... always feel proud if got other girl love them although married. Some girl just cheap..like to destroy other girl family..simply enjoy the win feeling.

+meme+ says:
u sure u get ready to married me?
+meme+ says:
coz u still using other account chit chat with other girl ooo..using ur 2nd pc ..
+himhim: says:
why u say that?? i hav no chat also
+meme+ says:
2 month ago..the apply incident..i not yet ask u why still janjan
+meme+ says:
apple
+meme+ says:
i only get my answer last nite..why i no confident in our marriage. coz u keep repeat ur bad habit
+meme+ says:
i know u will burst if i told u this.. tat why last nite didn't tell u my feeling.
+meme+ says:
i am searching for this answer for q long ady... last nite only i know not bcus i not love u..just ur repeat mistake coz me think another way
+himhim: says:
wat last night?
+meme+ says:
this few day i keep tihnking way i like no confident in our marriage actually..tat cause my low morale
+meme+ says:
but last nite i got the answer lor
+himhim: says:
what answer?
+meme+ says:
i am searching for this answer for q long ady... last nite only i know not bcus i not love u..just ur repeat mistake coz me think another way
+himhim: says:
not UN
+meme+ says:
if ur bad habit never change..no point we marriage..coz will divorve one day
+meme+ says:
coz u enjoy knowing other girl ..by hiding from me.. using ur second pc chit chat..and hiding the screen..
+himhim: says:
when???
+meme+ says:
apple incident really turn me really down..but i keep to myself for few weeks
+meme+ says:
tat 2month ago.
+meme+ says:
meaning u still repeating ur mistake again n again.
+himhim: says:
...
+meme+ says:
+him+ says:
after read ur blog found tat i very stupid on pass
more understand u, feel so sorry and regret to hurt u again n again
+meme+ says:
but 2 month ago..u still using other id knowing other girl..
+meme+ says:
very scare ooo
+himhim: says:
who is him?
+meme+ says:
oh..godness..u forget this is ur sentence u send me 2007 april
+meme+ says:
meaning u never keep ur promise type.
+himhim: says:
WTF apple...did u finish the T6 product??
+meme+ says:
i am doing it..
+meme+ says:
yea..i am rite..u are burst
+meme+ says:
end then
+meme+ says:
bye

finally i find a answer i longing for few weeks.

Last night, still thinking why I refuse to put on the ring he gave me last year feb. I finally got the answer. The answer is lack of confident in this relationship.
Bcuse 2month ago, I reliaze he stil using janjan account to chit chat with other girl. I am lost, I don’t know what will I become in the future, I don’t wish become a monster…I just want to be a good wife. Have a happy and peace family.
I don’t want end up divorce. Because is really make myself look silly..Because god show me his real face for few times, I still back with him and believe in his promise and wording.
Just hope he don’t make I look so silly in future.

why i refuse to step in to marriage life after 11years together with him..

Simply weird feeling … I have the uneasy feeling toward him again.

27 july 2008 he msn with secret girl friend?

from his pc, i saw him messenging with someone, while i went over he close the window and act innocent... i know he good in acting. i just hold my sadly and keep silent.

feel ashame for myself

how many time i told myself to leave him
how many time i told he lie to me
how many time i told he hurt me
how many time i crying because of i feel hurt and sad

how long to go..

i hold my mind

he still using janjanxtra to keep in touch with other girl :( why can he again and again cheat me without feel bad.

i feel very upsad for almost 2 weeks..i never let him know about my feeling being cheated and cheated again..i only know i need a break and i wan to run away from his life...

buy me ring for empty promise...

buy house still thinking of other girl..really sad.

totally lost confident

after 3days of cold war..this was the 1st time i feel tired to talk to him, and manage to ignore him for 3days and night. because i just reliaze i no longer trust him, and i hate empty promises. so i choose to be silent.

i will plan my own path after the trip to his hometown by mid of may.
i changed i notice myself..calm to face it.
i no longer a happy person like last time. i hide a lot of my feeling and story.